Chinese New Year school hoildays are suck! Staying at home. Terguling guling tengok teevee. Takpun tidur. Sampai mama cakap "Hang ni tidur je, anak menangis ke semalam?". I just keep smiling. Anak ramai sangat mama, laki dah hilang. Dia biarkan angah terkapai kapai seorang diri dengan lima orang anak kembar. Mak aihhhh! Dahsiat!*Dahsyat :) Takpun XBox-ing, sampai rasa fedup naik main the same game over again. Nak ajak Mama beli new CD game memang susah lah sekarang ni. Sebab nak beli tu hahh, kat Shah Alam sana. Memang mama malas tahap dewa sembilan belas ah --' Takpa takpa, sabar itu separuh daripada iman. Online? Lagi lah, naik hangin satu badan je kalau online. AAA currently in-love with his junior. Haihh, takpa lah. Saya redha :') Saya dah agak something like this will happen. Berapa lama AAA nak suka saya kan? Ehh, salah! Berapa lama dia boleh tahan nak reply text saya. Dah lah saya kuat touching, sensitive etc etc. Takpaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Saya tak kisah :) Salah saya jugak kan? Orang dah tak suka lagi nak terhegeh hegeh*fuhh, tak tahan tak tahan :'( I cried yesterday. I want to call my best friends, but I'm fucking shy to on the phone with them. Let them hear I'm crying? That fucking pathetic Najah! Kau dah cukup besar untuk fikir the reason why you crying?! Be tough can ya?
Mood? Actually, memang takda mood langsung nak blogging bagai bagai. Semalam, misunderstanding happened between us. Because of AAA status update. I though dia post because of me. So, I felt like I'm fucking stupid to go on with him. That time I was at tuition center and nasib baik, Nabilah, Fadzly and Zamir was there. Make stupid jokes and I pretend to laugh even I felt I want to cry. Before the class start I text him after I read his status
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NI - "Takpa takpa I sedar i siapa, bye"
AAA - "Status tu bukan you lah . Ish , you ni"
AAA - "Youuuuuuuuuuuu , "
NI - "Hmm takpa lah you :)"
AAA - "Bukan you lah , serious . Ada budak ni . I tak approve dia dah nak 8 bulan. Tadi dia hantar kat message inbox i nak maki maki --' "
AAA - "You ?"
NI - "Takpa takpa :)"
AAA - "Hmm , you macam dah tak nak text je ? Im sorry"
NI - "Its okay, chillax. Jap lagi i dah smoke i okay lah :)"
AAA - "Lahh , perlu ke smoke bagai ? --' "
NI - "Hmm tak. Dah ah, i nak tuition, bye."
AAA - "Err okay . Bye <3<3"
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Nahh, he already explain so hard but I don't know why I still rasa yang AAA post status tu because of me. So balik tuition, he on-the-line and so do I. But, we act like nothing happen between us. Macam kitaorang tak kenal each other. He didn't IM me so, I prefer to keep silent. He didn't text me so, I prefer to remain silent :| it's okay Najah, you're tough enough aite? :') I post a lots of status but nothing happen. No IM conversation, no text-ing and no phone call. I told yaaa! He fucking in-love with his junior. Jealous? I'm tired of being jealous. I get jealous with a boy that I ove so much but the real fact is we're are not in a special relationship. Am I fucking stupid? I think I'm not but the perfect word to describe my situation right now is DAYDREAMING! I'm tired to faced all this. No more tears and AAA. I'm done, I guess :')